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Open Couch – Swan Song
 
Or
 
‘Death Shall Have No Dominion’
 
 
A moment of some blinding reflection of sunlight, caught on the shiny metal of a 1967 Chevrolet Impala captures the eye of a young man entrapped and immobilized within his own body and reminds him of numerous memories of a dangerous and sometimes hopeless life so devastatingly rich in family love that he regains just enough power to conquer the greatest fiend and win the day.
 
The wayward sons of the Winchester clan have been on the road fighting evil for many years, and we were allowed to witness their exploits from the moment they began to be brothers again – after being apart – in search for their father, for each other, eventually for hope and redemption.
 
My heart made a leap, as The Road So Far appeared on the screen with the first beats of the Winchester theme song, Kansas’ Carry On, My Wayward Son. I have followed every episode of this season, but to see it cut together with the crucial moments brought to our attention in the opening montage – a wonderful tradition carried on in this season’s finale – I was already on the verge of tears. And the episode had not even begun.
 
It began, then, as a beautiful homage to one of my personal heroes of this show – the one and only, ever faithful, gorgeous, sexy Chevy that has accompanied the brothers for as long as we’ve known them, and longer.  We learn of the army man little Sam ‘crammed into the ashtray’ and the legos young Dean ‘shoved into the vents’ that are still rattling today when the heat comes on. This show has always been about family. And their impala, the metallic symbol of and for two brothers’ pained, dysfunctional, loving family. It is, as we hear with delight, ‘the most important car…no, object in pretty much the whole universe.’

 
 
Kripke comes full circle with this episode. And I can’t think of a more amazing and thundering way he could have done it.
 
Carver Edlund, respectively Chuck Shurley, our beloved Prophet Chuck (who will turnout to be more than meets the eye) is writing the latest volume of The Winchester Gospel and will serve as a narrator throughout this episode. A classic move of the creators. Wonderful. Chuck’s soothing, well-modulated voice will have a calming effect on me when the emotions rage too fiercely.
 
‘The whole up-with-Satan-thing… I’m on board.’
 
This episode starts with such a powerful intro, and it keeps up the pace till the end. The scene in Bobby’s scrap yard is the one we’ve seen in the promos, so it was no surprise that Dean eventually decides to go with Sam’s plan, no matter how much that freaks him out. I guess there was no one among us who actually thought Dean would not do that, as he realizes that Sam was, indeed, right, that this was the only possible shot at Lucifer they still have, after so many of their friends have died in previous battles.
 
Sam:    ‘You’re gonna let me say Yes?’
Dean:   ‘No, that’s the thing: it’s not on me to let you do anything. You’re a grown… over-grown man… if this is what you want, I’ll back your play.’
Sam:    ‘That’s the last thing I thought you’d ever say.’
Dean:  â€˜Might be. I’m not gonna lie to you, though. It goes against every fibre I got. The truth is, watching out for you… it’s kinda been my job, you know, but more than that. It’s kinda who I am. You’re not a kid anymore, Sam. And I can’t keep treatin’ you like one… Maybe I got to grow up a little, too… I don’t know if we got a snowball’s chance, but I do know that if anybody can do it, it’s you.’

 
 
Dean has come a long way here. He has realized, for several episodes now that he has to change. The times demand it. He realized, painfully probably, that his calling – being his brother’s keeper – is not the deal of the day anymore. So, he has to say good-bye to the most self-defining trait he’s known about himself. He has to let Sam go. Not yet into the dark pit he will fall in later, but into the dimension of what it means to be your own person. A grown up human being that can and has to stand on his own feet. And accept his own responsibility which Sam does by taking the (assumingly) last steps of his young life.
 
This scene is in all likelihood one of the moments Dean needs most of his courage for. Also, he gives Sam what his younger brother requires like air – the trust of his elder brother. This, I think, is one of the most important facets Sam needs to find redemption and conquer the devil.
 
They prepare meticulously for the great showdown – first of all killing some demons, bleeding them out like pigs in a slaughterhouse. They work quietly, each devoted to their tasks, and I guess it was Sam who did the cutting, as we get a close up of Sam wiping his knife and then loading gallons of demon blood into the Impala’s trunk, heading for Detroit, where it all will happen.
 
It was a messy job, none was left unharmed by what they did, and I don’t mean only the blood stains on Dean’s face or on Sam’s hands. They killed humans, again, possessed by demons. At this point, of course, ‘the luxury of a moral stand’ does not apply anymore. But the Winchesters have never ceased to be compassionate people, neither has Bobby. To be forced to do that must eat away at them, too, however, to be able to concentrate on their mission, they probably stuff it back into a corner of their cortex where it will torture them from in the occasional nightmare.
 
‘You mind not watching this?’
 
It is a long drive to Detroit. The kind of long you experience when you head to do something you actually don’t want to do… With Castiel asleep in the back seat of the Impala, an unusual sight and testament to Cas’ being without any mojo since angels don’t sleep, the brothers have time and privacy to address one important matter – what will happen to Dean after Sam is gone? Sam, knowing his brother and from personal experience, needs the reassurance that Dean will not do anything stupid – like: crossroads stupid. Like making-a-deal stupid.
 
Sam:    ‘Hey, ahm, on a subject of something I gotta talk to you about…this thing goes our way and I triple Lindy into that box, you know I’m not coming back… ‘
Dean:   ‘Yeah. I’m aware.’
Sam:    ‘So, you gotta promise me something.’
Dean:  â€˜Okay. Anything.’
Sam:    ‘you gotta promise me not to try to bring me back.’
Dean:  â€˜What!? No, I didn’t sign up for that! Your hell is gonna make my tour look like Graceland! You want me to sit by and do nothing?’
Sam:    ‘Once this cage is shut, you can’t go poking at it, Dean. Too risky.’
Dean:   ‘As if I’m just gonna let you rot in there!’
Sam:    ‘Yeah, you are!’
Dean:   ‘You can’t ask me to do that.’

 
Dean clearly remembers the endless moments in hell he was tortured and probably pictures Sam going through the same ordeal, while Sam is hoping for Dean to find a more peaceful life, the kind he had hoped for with Jessica, a lifetime ago, when he was still convinced that he had a shot at a normal life, with a loving wife, kids, dogs, the kind of normal he’d always desired. Maybe that is the kind of prize Sam hopes for Dean to find – peace of soul with a woman he might feel at home with (and Sam in all likelihood needs peace of mind knowing, at least convincing himself, that Dean will live and maybe one day heal):
 
Dean:   ‘So ,what am I supposed to do?’
Sam:    ‘You go find Lisa, you pray she’s dumb enough to take you in and you have barbecues and go to football games, you go live some normal, apple pie life, Dean. Promise me.’

 
The shattered and miserable, yet decisive look on Sam’s face makes it clear – it’s his dying wish. We don’t hear it, but Dean makes that promise.
 
So they arrive in Detroit, still – naively – hoping the devil might not know about the rings and their purpose. Perhaps it’s a blessing that they are not aware yet of the full extent of the trap they’re walking into. My blood, however, is running cold. I’m afraid for them.
 
The moment of good-bye has come, and Sam shares a desperate embrace with his second father whose heart is breaking. He tries to remind Sam of the fight he has to fight, but can hardly hold back his tears. Bobby’s not fooling anyone, and he does not have to. Everyone knows how hopeless the situation is. But keeping your spirits up, in whatever way, is crucial in an hour like this.

 
As Sam steps up to Castiel, asking him to look out for his remaining family, Cas, matter of fact and indeed sucking at good-byes, fails miserably and eventually tries to reassure Sam with a bad Dean impersonation (I imagine he tries to come back with an expression he’s seen Dean deliver countless times – which turns out to be the only actually kinda funny moment of this episode. I can’t laugh, though. Anything in the neighbourhood of laughter gets stuck in my throat at this point). ‘Just stop talking’, is all Sam can ask. He’s talking the words out of my mouth.

 
And as Sam makes himself ready to drown that huge amount of blood… I want to step in like a deus ex machina and save them. Ah, I’m only a viewer. Right…
 
Who can swallow that much fluid at once? From that alone Sam must be exhausted. And must feel it – that familiar sensation of the energy of the blood cursing through his veins. Liquid fire, I imagine. Powerful. And terrible.
 
‘Okay, let’s go.’ Sam can’t wait a minute. He needs this defiance, his anger to get his destructive engine running, while Dean watches helplessly. There’s not much he can do now to help him, except just being at his side. Sam musters up all accessible bravado and challenges the ‘the sons of bitches’. This is the beginning of the end.
 
Once more Chuck’s narration serves as a breather amidst the intense scenes, and – frankly – I’m somewhat desperate for that. Gentle music in the background, scenes in soft colours, he tells us of the Impala’s history, and her blemishes that make her beautiful. ‘The devil doesn’t know or care what car the boys drive’ which is stupid ignorance, because this car, eventually, will be hugely responsible for his downfall.
 
‘Deal of the century – I give you a free ride…’
 
The devil is not one to be fooled. Not even by two determined brothers. And Sam’s demonstration of his strength doesn’t impress him at all.
 
We have never seen Sam this powerful. Like a dark Jedi he closes his eyes, breathes in … the demons drop dead, breathes out, his eyes cool, triumphant, defiant, aware of his power. Sam’s impatient. He wants to get it over with.
 
Dean, on the other hand, is growing more and more frightened and desperate. Is it possible at all what Jensen does in this scene belonging to the confrontation of Sam and Lucifer – he enhances everything with the look in his eyes that tell us exactly what this man is going through. He can’t keep Sam from saying yes.
‘So he knows. Doesn’t change anything.’ I does for Dean, I think, but he still backs Sam’s play. As Lucifer challenges Sam to a battle of wits, echoing the words he addressed Dean with in The End (‘one round, no tricks, you win, you jump in the hole. I win… then I win.’), Sam agrees to his conditions – and blinding, invading light alerts us that it has happened.
 
Dean, the one still standing, performs the ritual of the rings and opens the door to Lucifer’s cage… a black hole, sucking everything in… who knows where it leads to…? He helps Sam who has been unconscious up – the last thing he can do for his brother: remind him of the task at hand, spur him on to do what they came here for: ‘Sam, you gotta go now! Run! Go now, Sammy! Now!’

 
Trying to reassure Sam… and as Sam turns to that terrible hole in the wall, after giving an Oscar worthy performance of a bewildered Sam, mocking him, Lucifer looks at Dean. 
 
Cool. Triumphant. Aware of his power. Condescending. Beautiful. Horrific. He is Lucifer. ‘Sam’s long gone.’
 
What Jared does here with his voice alone blows my mind. It’s darker, colder, bereft of the compassion we usually find there. He’s speaking icy daggers, in a more distinctive manner than he normally does.
It hurts almost physically to follow this scene. Even more as Dean is left, his breath hitching, in tears. Lost and alone.
 

 
 
‘This is your life, Azazel’s gang, watching you since you were a rugrat, jerking you around.’
 
Jared’s performance continues to amaze me. As he walks through an assembly of people or demons which resembles hauntingly a wax cabinet, cracking his knuckles he’s all dominance and power. Electrifying. It’s not easy to convey that kind of energy by body language – Sam is gone. He’s disappeared behind Lucifer who tries to get a heart-to-heart with his favourite…
 
Lucifer:  ‘Sam, come on, I can feel you scratching away in there. Look, I’m gonna take the gag off, okay? You got me all wrong, kiddo. I’m not the bad guy here.’

 


And then we get a performance of the same astonishing quality Jensen gave in The End – Sam and Lucifer, verbally at each others’ throats, one in front of a broken mirror, the other in it. An instant classic. Has there ever been a devil so alluring and attractive and menacing? I love it, am in awe and in tears. This is ripping at my soul like a wild dog.
 
Sam:     ‘I’m gonna rip you apart from the inside out, you understand me?
Lucifer:  â€˜Such anger, young Skywalker. Who are you really angry with? Me? Or that face in the mirror?’
Sam:     ‘I’m sure this is all a big joke to you.’
Lucifer:  ‘Oh not at all. I’ve been waiting for you for a long, long time. Come on, Sam, you have to admit – you can feel it, right?’
Sam:     ‘What?’
Lucifer:  â€˜The exhilaration. And you know why that is? Because we’re two halves made whole. Mfeo, literally.’
Sam:     â€˜This feels pretty damn far from good!’
Lucifer:  â€˜I’m inside your grapefruit, Sam. You can’t lie to me. I see it all, how odd you always felt, how out of place in that family of yours. And why shouldn’t you have? They were foster care at best. I’m your real family.’
Sam:    ‘No, it’s not true.’ (the expression on his face, though, might be a sign that Lucifer is hitting too close to home)
Lucifer:  â€˜It is, and I know you know it, all those times you ran away, you weren’t running from them, you were running towards me. This doesn’t have to be a bad thing, you know. I let Dean live, didn’t I? I want him to live. I’ll bring your folks back, too. I want you to be happy, Sam.’
Sam:    ‘I don’t want anything from you!’
Lucifer: â€˜Really? Not even a little… payback?’

 
He introduces Sam to a part of Azazel’s gang that has been around him from childhood on, among them his prom date Rachel Nave… Even if Sam protested against Lucifer’s suggestion to blow off a little steam, he would have had no choice – as we see Lucifer later, sitting like a potentate on bloody stairs, surrounded by corpses of the mentioned gang, some dismembered, some ripped open. Oh yes, he did blow off some steam. The way only the devil can.
 
‘It all had to end where it started.’
 
As Chuck’s soft voice sets in one more time to remind us in beautiful and moving scenes of the Impala’s story that is so deeply connected with two brothers that we can’t conceive of this show without it, he is interrupted by forlorn Dean who’s hoping Chuck, the prophet, can help them. Alas, all Chuck knows is the place of the big showdown – Stull Cemetery, just outside of Lawrence, the place Dean vowed never to return to, a long, long time ago.
 
Dean gets ready to head there, but Bobby and Castiel try to hold him back, but neither finds encouraging words at this point. This is another incredible moment for Jim Beaver who shows us an emptied Bobby – drained of all strength and hope, terrified and giving up. In the last and in this episode Mr Beaver conveys so many dark emotions without saying much and thereby moving the audience deeply…
 
Basically, both want to protect him. ‘I just want you to understand, the only thing you’re going to see out there is Michael killing your brother.’

 
But Dean is still the older brother who can’t let Sammy fall into the dark pit all alone. ‘Well, then I ain’t gonna let him die alone.’ There is no greater gift, is there, but to be at the side of your loved one in the moment of death, no matter how that is going to play out? This scene already tore open anything I had left of resolve or matter-of-fact-attitude (it’s only a freaking tv-show), and Jensen executes the coup de grâce with this line and his voice trembling with swallowed tears.
 
The sound editing is marvellous in this episode (I need to find some objectivity right now) – as we arrive at the cemetery, all we hear is wind, haunting and howling, not the place you want to be. This is the moment the angels have been waiting for – clash of the titans, the celebrity death match. Sam starring as Lucifer, Adam starring as Michael.
 
Michael:           ‘Are you ready?’
Lucifer:            ‘As I’ll ever be. Part of me wishes we didn’t have to do this.’
Michael:           ‘yeah, me, too.’
Lucifer:            ‘Then why are we?’
Michael:           ‘You know why. I have no choice, after what you did.’
Lucifer:            ‘What I did? What if it’s not my fault?’
Michael:           ‘What’s that supposed to mean?’
Lucifer:            ‘Think about it – Dad made everything. Which means he made me who I am. God wanted the devil, so why? Why make us fight? I just can’t figure out the point. (…) We’re going to kill each other and for what – one of dad’s tests… we don’t even know the answer. We’re brothers. Let’s just walk off the chessboard.’
 
And then it turns into a conversation we’ve heard before, in a fight of two other brothers.
 
Michael:           ‘I’m sorry, I can’t do that. I’m a good son and I have my orders.’
Lucifer:            ‘You don’t have to follow them.’
Michael:           ‘What? You think I’m gonna rebel, now? I’m not like you!’
Lucifer:            ‘Please, Michael.’
Michael:           ‘You haven’t changed a bit, little brother. Always blaming everybody but yourself. We were together, we were happy, but you betrayed me, all of us, and you made our father leave…’
Lucifer:            ‘No one makes Him do anything. He is doing this to us!’
Michael:           ‘You’re a monster, Lucifer.’
 
 
 
Instantly the dreadful fight of Sam and Dean in the last episodes of season four comes to mind... and its effect it had on the characters. Our hearts were bleeding for them then, and I feel an echo of it right now.
 
As the angels start circling each other, getting ready to deliver the first blows, Dean arrives – the Impala being his bat mobile, Zorro’s horse, all in one… You just gotta love Dean’s brazenness.
 
‘Did you just Molotov my brother with holy fire?’
 
Dean is surely aware that he doesn’t stand ‘a snowball’s chance’ against these two angelic powerhouses, but he must try to get through to their vessels. Somehow. He has to try, it’s in his bones. And he gets some help from his friends, Castiel and Bobby – they get him the five minutes he demands to talk to Sam, even at the price of their lives.

 
‘No one dicks with Michael but me.’ Lucifer is not amused at the development of this moment and turns Castiel into a fragmentation bomb of flesh, bones and blood, just snapping his fingers. A moment later he breaks Bobby’s neck, after he tried to shoot Lucifer – but he only hit Sam’s body with no effect on the inhabitant. Alas, I realize through tears, should Sam get rid off Lucifer, his body probably would not survive this – one bullet pierced his right shoulder, the other was lodged in his chest, near his heart.
 
This might have dawned on Dean, too, but he has no time to think on it, as Lucifer is at the end of his patience with this human maggot. He starts punching at Dean’s face, and he will break pretty much everything, nose, jawbone, maybe blind his left eye. But all Dean cares about is his brother whom he keeps trying to reach:
 
Dean:    ‘Sammy, are you in there?’
Lucifer:  ‘Oh, he’s in here alright! And he’s gonna feel the snap of your bones. Every single one. We’re gonna take our time.’ (What happened to ‘I want you to be happy, Sam’?)
 
Through pain and broken teeth, Dean keeps repeating his words like a desperate mantra: ‘Sammy, it’s okay, I’m here, I’m here, I’m not gonna leave you… I’m not gonna leave you…’
 
My God.
 
As Lucifer prepares to deliver another blow, and it looks like this one is going to be lethal, the magic of the Impala happens. Light catches Lucifer’s eye and draws his attention to the little army man in the ash tray – a memory so intense that it reaches Sam in there… who remembers countless little, important moments that tie him to his brother. If God intervened at some point, it might have been this one.
 


 
This scene is done beautifully. Again the sound effects editing is award worthy – as Sam’s mind rushes through those scenes familiar to us all, we hear the howling wind, and then, at one crucial moment – Dean hugging Sam tightly after bringing him back from the dead – there is silence. Nothing else. All I can hear is my own breath coming in gasps. I don’t know what’s happening to me. I’m completely at the mercy of this show right now.
 
Sam is capable of getting a hold of Lucifer, at least for a short period of time, enough to open the cage and prepare to jump into the pit. ‘It’s okay, Dean’, he tries to comfort his brother whom he’s beaten up to the point of almost killing him, ‘It’s gonna be okay. I’ve got him.’
 
 
 
Dean can’t respond, he just watches silently as Sam nods at him, before Michael appears again, claiming he had to fight his brother, it was his destiny! Sam pulls him down with him, and the hole closes. Well, Archangel. This time Team Free Will wins nonetheless. But it comes with a terrible price tag.
 
As in Hamlet, ‘the rest is silence.’ Dean is left there, mourning his brother, his friends. As Castiel arrives, restored and improved, Dean wonders whether he might be God. Well, he isn’t. But he has enough angel mojo now to bring Bobby back to life – and my heart leaps another time. Losing Bobby would have been more of a blow I could have digested at this moment. To hell with ‘it’s only a tv show.’

 
‘They chose family. And, well, isn’t that kinda the whole point?’
 
Chuck muses about the difficulties of endings, the problems of tying up loose ends and the expected bitching of the fan base (well, surely there are some fans out there who are already bitching over this episode and the show… well, I don’t care. For me, this is still the best show on television. Bitch as much as you like…you know who you are.)
 
Later he will return in a splendid white shirt, well groomed, a very attractive gentleman, emphasize the importance of family and free will, the making of right choices. And then – he will disappear. Oh, hello and good-bye God.

 
More good-byes are in order. Dean and Castiel have an almost fight in the car, and Dean and Bobby won’t see each other for a long time. Once more, Dean is broken. ‘Every part of him ,every fibre he’s got wants to die or find a way to bring Sam back. But he isn’t going to do either – because he made a promise’ to his dying brother.
 
So, Dean does what he promised to do: he finds Lisa. The moment she opens the door, she knows the state Dean is in. She sees that he is lying upon claiming to be okay. Why does Jensen have to go and break what’s left of my heart with a performance like this? This extraordinary actor again puts so much in these few minutes that I can hardly believe what I’m watching.
 
‘If it’s not too late, I’d like to take you up on that beer.’ His voice shaking from the tears that are going to fall any second. As she invites him in and he starts to move, he pulls her into a tight hug, burying his face in her shoulder. ‘Sh, sh, sh… it’s okay, Dean. It’s going to be okay.’ And finally he can let go and weep, and find something like comfort with a loving and warm woman.

 
He will never be the same. I doubt that Dean will be okay. Even if he tries to live a normal life with Lisa and sweet little Ben…
 
But this is not where it ends.
 
Sam returns. He remains standing outside, looking on, his face a bleak mask. This will leave us confused for the rest of the hiatus – who is he? Did he return as Sam, human and alive, rewarded with redemption for his great sacrifice? Or is he a demon? A ghost? At this point I will not go into speculations. Finding out how Sam came back and who he is might be a part of the following season.
And I am so happy that we’re going to have another one. Parting with this show after such a devastating, intense and nerve-wrecking finale seems inconceivable.
 
  
Kripke delivered the best possible episode, summing up the essence of the show, as we have loved it from the beginning: it’s all about family. And love. As cheesy as it may sound, that’s at its core.
 
I am so not immune to what this show does to me. I keep expecting to build up some immunity to its emotional hooks and meat grinders, but I haven’t achieved that, yet. I have never felt this drained by a tv show, and yet I love it and would not change it for the world. But after watching this finale, I needed some time to find my heart again. It felt as if it had gone down the pit with Sam…
 
All of a sudden there was an empty sensation. Like my body wasn’t mine anymore. And then the pain set it. As if some huge steel cramp twisted my soul with delicious malice. Why does this show do this to me – or to any of us?
 
It didn’t take me long to find an answer – it’s all about family, of course. When I finished watching this episode, I looked around and spotted the pics of my family members and passed on loved ones. They are assembled in a little corner of my living room, a collection of memoranda of people who are no longer available to me, and suddenly so many pictures came to me… not unlike the flashback Sam was experiencing in the end. And then the tears came.
 
It’s often like that, isn’t it? A scene, a moment, a word reminds us of something in our lives – and in this particular show those sequences are so marvellously played out by a pair of gifted young actors and their co-stars that we can’t stay ignorant. They hit our hearts with almost nuclear energy and evoke personal moments that meant a lot to us.
 
Well, I can only speak for me, of course. For a moment I thought I would not survive this episode. Countless moments I bargained with God or Death for someone I lost (well, I thought I did, there was no voice on the other end of the line) came to mind and it felt like … there are not really words to say how it felt. Perhaps like Sam might have felt falling into that fathomless pit. Or like Dean felt watching his brother go.
 
But ‘family don’t end with blood’ and forcefully I reminded myself of the dear friends that are my family now. And it got easier, tolerable.
A part of me, the one that still sometimes feel that pain, wishes not to have watched this episode. Another part, the professional one, comes up telling me: you need to distance yourself from this fictional story. It’s hard, though.
 
Good stories are supposed to move us, to be an echo of personal experiences that will draw us in.
 
 
I might not be watching this episode for a while, to not get sucked into this meat grinder that has fun playing with my soul right now. Or I might. I have not idea, as of yet. I love it, though. For me, it’s one of the best, if not the best episode of the entire show. I am in awe. As much as I could ever be.
 
I could imagine, some of you experienced similar emotions while watching Swan Song. It can be painful, you bet it can, but then again – these are your emotions. They can’t harm you. Not anymore. Whatever it was that made you sad in the past and was woken by this amazing story – you already survived it. So, if you feel you need to tear up and cry buckets… being knee-deep in Kleenex would be an understatement in my case… do so. It’s not a crime to be emotional, compassionate and capable of allowing a fictional story to move you so deeply you can hardly believe it possible.
 
Death is not really the end, I believe. Even though some are not here anymore, we carry them in our hearts. Dean will have to live with that for now, as Sam had to after he lost his brother to hell. We, as viewers, will accompany them, feel and fret with them. And go on loving this marvellous show.
 
Allow me to end, as I began, with Dylan Thomas immortal words that somehow felt right here:
 
‘Though they go mad, they shall be sane,
Though they sink through the sea, they shall rise again,
Though lovers be lost, love shall not.
And Death shall have no dominion.’
 

Comments  

joelsteinlover
# joelsteinlover 2010-05-16 16:44
You're very eloquent at putting your emotions into words, I admire that. I haven't gone through anything like you have, but I could feel how touched you were by this episode.

And I love that poem! I have it hanging up on my mirror. Those are the perfect lines from it for this show, though I also feel like 6-9 in the second stanza also apply: 'Faith in their hands shall snap in two, and the unicorn evils run them through, split all ends up they shan't crack, and death shall have no dominion.' After all Sam and Dean have been up against, they still perservered, that's what I get out of those lines at least.

I was so glad to read this because, believe it or not, a lot of people thought this episode was just average. I usually don't stray from the haven that is TWFB because I dislike people who don't "take it seriously" (if you know what I mean) like those here, but I did, only accidentally, and discovered that people are writing flippant, quick synopses and downplaying the emotional significance of the episode and (gasp) calling it "underwhelming" because there was no fight scene. I'm like "uhh what episode were you watching?!" But you painted a picture of the episode that was so beautiful that I daresay I forgot those people. A fight scene. Pfft.

Eurk, I swear, I'm going to be searching through thesauruses (thesauri?) all summer trying to find an adjective to describe his face in that last scene. But I, too, am gratful that there was that last scene. Season six is such a blessing.

I thought the most pretty thing in the entire episode was Bobby being alive. Wait, no, it was Sam saying goodbye to Bobby. No, wait, it was Dean fufilling his promise to Sam. Wait, no, it was Dean telling Sam that he wasn't going to leave. I manage to avoid crying at TV shows, there have only been a few times that's happened, and it was that moment when Dean was being the best big brother, pretty much ever, that did it for me in this episode. Or maybe it was when Dean hugged Lisa. Eh, it's not even worth trying to choose.

So anyway, I loved your review. Your emotional connection to the show really shines when you're writing about it.
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-16 17:14
Joelsteinlover, thank you so much for your elaborate comment. That poem is one of my favourites, and I agree many lines of it are fitting... For me the idea of love that prevails was predominant here -as love is the force behind it all, in so many facets and colours. so, 'If lovers be lost, love shall not.' And the notion that even though they've pretty much lost their sanity, they will heal, eventually. That is my hope for the characters. All of them. All are scarred.

I have read some comments elsewhere too, with fans bitching about this episode, and I could hardly believe it, either. I'm happy that you were 'able to forget' those comments reading this.

This show touches each one of us who dare to look behind the action, the gore or the pretty faces, I'd say. we have different stories that are woken by it, and it takes a show of high quality to achieve that - to bind so many various people to a story so simple, yet so complex.

don't worry, choosing is not necessary. We're entirely entitled to love one moment today, the other moment tomorrow and love all the moments at once...

thank you. I appreciate your comment so much. Jas
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-16 18:20
Leslie, how lovely of you. Thank you, dear, I'm moved... this was hard to write, actually, as it was painful to watch, but the words somehow kept coming. Love, Jas
Bevie
# Bevie 2010-05-16 18:23
Jas, you have such a wonderful way with words. Your feelings and emotions were pretty much the same as mine.
My family and many friends have all gone now, and seeing Dean bereft of his family and friends kneeling on the ground beside his baby brought back those devastating emotions that prevail at those times.

Those that complain they missed a great battle between the archangels just don't get what this show has been about since the pilot. It's about family and love and everything else is mere trappings in order to tell the story. And what a story has been told by the master in five seasons and 104 episodes. Kripke, you are a genius and this finale was everything I could have hoped for (with the exception of the doubts surrounding the image of Sam at the end). But then you have to leave us something to debate about through the hellatus, don't you?

So happy to see that Jim Beaver has told us that Bobby will certainly be back next season. Thank God for that!

It's good to know there are many people like you Jas, who do understand the point of this TV Show and appreciate the subtle and wonderful ways it is presented to us. I've only seen one negative comment about it on this very site, and am certainly staying away from those other shallow places where you only find bitching no matter what is presented to them.

We are so blessed to have had these two awesome young actors portraying these amazing and endearing characters.
And the love between Dean and Sam seems to have extended itself unto Jensen and Jared, and made their performances almost unbelievably realistic. I love that they are such good friends themselves.
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-16 19:08
Bevie, I am so sorry to hear about your family and friends - and I thank you for sharing this with us. As you know after reading this article, I can relate intimately.

The pain that is still there (stuffed back into some corner of the soul to be able to go on with our lives) often gets woken by stories that somehow echo the loss of loved ones.
This show does that in an incredible manner...

You know, I firmly believe that the pain we still feel at times (and thankfully not all the time, how else would we be doing what we do every day?) is nothing else but an echo of the love we've felt for the people we've lost.

It's nothing else but love. Only love's bright colour has changed to a more sombre one. I believe as long as it does hurt, even after years, we still love. And that is a gift I would not change for the world - except perhaps for not having to experience losing someone.

But life's that way. We can hardly choose. What we can choose is how to honour their memory. Not only in e.g. keeping promises as Dean does, but also in going on with our lives. Isn't that what our loved ones would wish for us?

I also didn't miss a great battle. Well, we had more than one battle here, if we're talking fights, but they did not take place in huge action sequences but in the souls of the protagonists - Dean letting Sam go, Sam fighting Lucifer, Bobby trying to get on against his own fear. If those aren't battles of the worst kind, I'm nothing but a stupid gal.

So happy that Jim Beaver will be on next season, too!

I agree wholeheartedly that this show is blessed with some amazing acting. It's not for granted on today's television.

Thank you so much for your comment, Bevie. I'll try to go to sleep now, did not succeed earlier, so good night and blessed be, Jas
Julie
# Julie 2010-05-16 20:11
Jas ,
That was beautiful.
You were so right , about everything , Thank you Ju
BagginsDVM
# BagginsDVM 2010-05-16 22:01
I had to grab the 1st Kleenex from the box on the couch next to me as soon as I heard "Carry On Wayward Son". This was such an amazing episode, and you've written a beautiful review. Sometimes it is hard to forget that this is "just a TV show". I like your description of pain as an echo of love for those we've lost. It makes me feel better about still shedding tears even years later for those I've lost.
Thank you!
Dawn
Kayo
# Kayo 2010-05-16 23:11
Thanks, Jas. Your words were very comforting. My father passed away in December, and I think, at least subconsciously, I was not making the connection of why "Swan Song" had such an impact on me. After having ridden along with Sam and Dean for five years, I thought I was prepared for just about anything; but, after several days distance, I am still feeling a bit overcome. I suppose only great art can do that. That, and two actors named Jared and Jensen. The way Jared delivered the line: "It's okay Dean. It's going to be okay. I've got him." made me gasp. I instantly flashed back to the young Dean carrying baby Sam out of their burning home and saying, "It's okay, Sam. It's going to be okay. I've got you."

I'm so grateful that the road will go on; but, for me, "Swan Song" will remain the most beatuiful--dare I say haunting--concl usion to the Winchester story.
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-17 01:47
Julie, Dawn, Kayo and Narcissus,

I'm deeply moved by your sharing of your emotions. Thank you.

Julie, I know how you feel. You don't have to say much more. Love.

Dawn, I'm happy and honoured to have found some words that soothed your loss a tiny bit. My description in that earlier comment is the kind of thought that usually helps me through. I'm glad someone else can use it.

Kayo, I'm profoundly sorry to hear of your great loss! The pain is still fresh, those few months are not much in the realm of grief.

Trust me, though, it will get better with time. That's the one cliché that actually holds some truth - that time does heal, at least to some extent.
And whatever pain will remain, it won't be able to harm you, as you will find ways to cope, I'm sure.

And I'm certain that this show will add to getting better, too, with more stories acted out by these amazing talented actors.

Narcissus, thank you for that link! it is indeed a wonderful piece of fan art work...

Thank you all for your personal comments. Always my best, Jas
faye
# faye 2010-05-17 07:37
I've reading the comments ever since Swan Song, and then I'd get all emotional, and couldn't express what I wanted to say. Jeez!
I've believed all along that Sam couldn't kill Dean any more than Dean could kill Sam, and what ever crap they went through in their lives, they survived it because they had each other.
One of the initial aspect of the show that attracted me was the road trip, the car, the driving. Why? I'm an airforce brat.Now some of you won't know what I mean, but there are others that are saying, yeah, that's it exactly. The constant transfers, the road trips to the new place where you knew nobody and only had each other, having everything you really needed in the car, because the rest was in storage for months. That was my life growing up. No wonder I connected to the Winchesters.
So Sam couldn't kill Dean, no matter how much Lucifer wanted to, and to me it was an "of course" moment that all those memories were stored in the car.
I think Dean knew that Sam's shot of taking control was to remember who he was. Dean had seen Bobby take control during demon possession, but it wasn't a one in a million fluke, he'd seen his father do it with Yellow eyes back in Season 1 (so did Sam, I think that's where he got the idea). That why Dean had to keep trying, despite how stupid everyone seemed to think it was.
Two other things I thought were neat that nobody's mentioned yet: how hard the demons had to work at corralling Sam, all those demons watching him and prodding him, I guess evil didn't come as naturally to Sam as they wanted him to believe :-) And the other thing: Michael had as much contempt for humanity as Lucifer, I guess that's why he ended up in the pit, too. Only Cas and Gabriel learned to love people.
As for the end,I don't think Dean will be able to stay with Lisa long. He's a hunter, he can't pretend to be blind. Even if Sam tries to leave him alone, one day Dean will see a job he can't ignore and he'll do it. And that will be the end of the apple pie life that Dean never fit into, even in his dreams.
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-17 10:02
faye, thank you for sharing that glimpse of your life growing up - I can imagine how you related to the Winchesters. We all found our connections to the show, and it's a testament to its quality that so many people with so various a background found something here that moved their souls.

I agree with you - evil didn't come naturally to Sam. He might have been fed with demon blood as a baby and later as an 'overgrown' man, but at his core he is good. A decent human being. Perhaps more than human, but good, merciful, compassionate.

I doubt, that Dean will stay with Lisa, too. We've seen in that last shot that he's not even there. Physically perhaps, but his thought keep wandering away. I can't wait to find out how things will turn out to be in the new season.

Cheers, Jas
Freebird
# Freebird 2010-05-17 17:20
Jas, you made me cry.
I don't know what to say more, for you have said it all.
Thank you so much for sharing!

Love,
Lara
Freebird
# Freebird 2010-05-17 17:21
Jas, you made me cry.
I don't know what to say more, for you have said it all.
Svaka ti ?ast!
Thank you so much for sharing!

Love,
Lara
Freebird
# Freebird 2010-05-17 17:23
Sorry for the double post, didn't know it got through the 1st time :|
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-17 17:49
Oh, Lara, that was not my intention, but it moves me that you were moved by this. Hvala Ti, maco! Jas
magichappening
# magichappening 2010-05-17 18:50
Hey I recognise that poem! And so cool that someone else linked the video too :-)

OK. I was alright reading your article until I got to the part where you wrote about Dean saying that he was not going to let Sam die alone, and I just started getting choked up again. And then as I read what the episode meant to you personally and to some of the other commenters I was tearing up - that’s a first for me while reading an article on this site. You are amazingly honest and I love the way you use language. Thank you so much for sharing.

For me I have to say that family is a difficult entity, experience, evolution…I think that is one of the reasons I love Supernatural so much. It makes me look at myself and my own relationships. I identify so much with Sam when it comes to family – his relationship with John is so familiar. But then again so much of what Dean says and feels are thoughts in my own head. And I cannot imagine the level of guilt he is going through sitting at that dining table at the end of Season 5…

I don’t think Chuck was always God though – am dying to find out the significance of him suddenly cleaning up and wearing the white shirt at the end. I am interested too in the Chuck disappearance – the manner in which he disappeared was certainly not angelic – more Trickster-like. God is the ultimate Trickster?

So the brothers Winchester are apart – I wonder if that last supper we witnessed of Dean’s was the same day he arrived at Lisa’s or was it some time after. But as the man says ‘death shall have no dominion’…S am is back – but will he reveal himself immediately or watch for a while longer? How has he changed? Will Dean stay with Lisa or keep ramblin’ on. And if so what will he do? What will be his motivation to get up in the morning…and if he stays will he ever fully be 100% there until he has Sammy fully back? We have to hang on to the almost reunion over these summer months.

I am so glad that Kripke got up one day and decided to write the Winchester Gospels. I am also glad that I discovered them and was converted ? The Supernatural experience is layer upon layer and each episode and each month brings something more - phenomenal mythology with both big and small M, movie-quality production week in and week out including a soundtrack that has enhanced every episode, two brothers who captivate our imaginations so much that we get angry with them as if they were real, two actors who are such genuine, funny, charming, attractive and genuinely all round good human beings (and lovely to look at), supporting characters that we love or love to hate, supporting cast that we love, and a fandom that while partially bats**t crazy and occasionally disturbing also hosts islands of sanity like this site and brings people together across the world at conventions and on websites, to share their lives, their thoughts and their love for this freakin’ phenomenal show!

I know I am going to be complaining about the length of the hiatus soon. But right now it almost seems fitting to acknowledge Sam’s sacrifice to save the world and Dean’s sacrifice to support that and then go on living…but it is also feels right to take some time to acknowledge Eric Kripke’s swan song, his departure and the five years he has given us. The finale started us off on that journey of reflection and these summer days and nights at TWFB will I am sure make for fascinating reading and discussion. Thank you Jas for starting us off with such empathy and eloquence.
Evelyn
# Evelyn 2010-05-17 19:19
Hi Jas - thanks for your beautiful review. This was indeed a classic Supernatural episode. Most of the season the brothers have been at odds. Starting with the first episode where Dean told Sam that he just couldn't trust him anymore. That Sam let him down in more ways than he could count. Such bitter words, but 21 episodes later we have come full circle and this show did what it does best - it brought us Dean and Sam together again, loving and trusting each other. Because no matter how much we like the fights, gore or other eccentricities I would dare say most of us keep coming back because of the relationship between the brothers. I know I do.

Since the brothers have been at such opposites ends most of the season, I had been hoping to see some brotherly love this episode and the show definitely delivered; from the talk on the Impala, to the flashbacks, the talk on the way to Detroit, Dean's unwavering faith in Sam and desperation of not wanting his Sammy to die alone, to the final "I will not leave yous" and "It will be okays". (I still tear up thinking about these scenes.) Truly heartbreaking. (I just wish we could have had a current hug goodbye or something between Dean and Sam before Sam allowed Lucifer in.) Oh well, beggars can't be choosers. I did love the ending with Dean fulfilling Sam's wish and seeking out Lisa. I like Dean with Lisa (and secretly hold out that Ben really is his son). But, I also believe that the hunter in him will eventually win out, but would like to see him try and have a little bit of slice of the "apple pie life" with barbeques and baseball games. Doesn't he deserve at least a little peace after all he has been through?

Alas, I've read some negative reviews from fans on other posts and also don't understand it. (I even saw one person that said they will stop watching because of this episode.) Like you and others have said, IMHO those individuals just don't really "get" this show. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and I respect that, but I am sorry that they are missing out on something so beautiful and pure.

This show genuinely tugs at our heart strings and affects us all in different, yet very personal ways. For me this season has been somewhat cathartic, watching Dean go through his downward cycle of depression and watching him struggle through that (as I remember my own experiences in that same struggle). I guess that is why I am such a Dean!girl because I can relate to him in so many ways.

Thank you again, Jas, for your insights and for everyone else's thoughts and feelings. It is nice to connect with people - even if it is only through the internet - and talk about something that we all love.

Here's hoping Season 6 will bring us more of the same (and then some!!!!!)
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-18 01:48
Hey, magichappening and Evelyn, your comments are so great and moving, thank you!

Magichappening, I can relate to your words regarding family. I think it is one of the most difficult relationships, as they are the people who have known us all our lives and there's no way of fooling them, as they know us often inside and out.

I've been also thinking about what will happen to Dean now after this ordeal, in fact I just sent an article to Alice yesterday, because I couldn't stop thinking about it.

Kripke gave us something great here, I agree wholeheartedly. I will always be grateful for this. Apart from this show that is so full of amazing facets, it brought us together here, to discuss the various aspects in a respectful and creative manner - and for me this show has been inspiring on so many levels. And - while getting into writing about it, it also improved my English, which I just love!

Thank you so much for you compliment to my writing. I'm deeply moved. It's great to hear that, who am I trying to fool? I can't be entirely cool about it. ;-)

Evelyn, I do agree with all my heart - the relationship of the brothers is the core of this show. Many of us find aspects of our own family relationships there, and though all that drama is fascinating to watch, and within these characters' world authentic and 'realistic', I also love it when I see them trusting each other again.

Both have grown beyond their own expectations. And, of course, the cemetery scene broke my heart... with pain for the brothers but also with joy that in the end there is love. Devastating as it can be.

It might be cheesy to some people, but it has never been to me. I'm a big advocate for love. Not only that between a man and a woman, but that we feel every day or give every day with our friends, when smiling to the salesperson at the grocery store, the postman... I think that's what keeps us going as human beings - respect and love in whatever way. And this show portrays it wonderfully, don't you think?

Thank you, Evelyn, for acknowledging my writing, too. I'm happy I could contribute to the connection here you point out so beautifully.

Take good care, Jas
Randal
# Randal 2010-05-18 08:44
Jas, as Dean once said to Bobby, you're awesome.

Action is all well and good, says Randal as he looks upon his International Brotherhood of Testosterone membership card, but there was, as you so eloquently, gently *and* strongly put it, no way for this to finish any other way than with pure, unadulterated emotion, with love.

That's what the show's about, no? This was the jewel on a crown of them over five seasons. And if all this love stuff is cheesy, then send me to France on an empty stomach.
Karen
# Karen 2010-05-18 09:40
Hi Jasminka
Once again beautifully written.
This episode for me was flawless. And yes it was all about Family.
That bond, that undying love, that no matter how angry or disappointed you may get, you can never really stop caring.
I don’t know how anyone watching this show, could not fall in love with these characters, not care what happens to them, not want to root for them, not defend them. The Supernatural world may not be real, but what these characters represent is very real. They feel as we do, they laugh, joke, tease, cry, get angry, get scared and they love as we do.
And it’s because of this we were able to relate to one or all of the characters that have shown up on our screen each week. Although they are hero’s in our eyes, they are also human, they are flawed, they make mistakes, loose faith and trust, but they also forgive and redeem themselves as we do.
Thanks again Jas!
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-18 10:09
Randal, Karen, hi dear friends! How lovely of you to raise your voice, thank you so much.

Randal, dear IBT member, what can I say? The purity, indeed, of what was going on in the souls of the characters was the most important thing. There was not better way for Kripke to close this chapter. I don't think a story could get more intimate within the realm of Supernatural than this one.

Karen, dear bard, I couldn't agree more - it's so real what the characters represent, universal themes, all. It's their humanity, indeed, that glues us to the screen every week. We know such stories, too, not with paranormal creatures but with monsters of our own that we compose of fear, hate, mistrust, longing, anger, etc. etc. We all have a chance at redemption, I hope. And watching the characters search for it could also serve as an inspiration when our lives get tough. To learn to believe in our own, flawed, strength...

Love, Jas
ElenaM
# ElenaM 2010-05-18 12:41
Haven’t been able to keep up here as well as I’d like, so I’m just catching up, Jas, but love reading your thoughts and insights. Yeah, that scene in the warehouse totally gave me chills: “Oh my God, they just strung up a couple of people . . .” And after Sam says yes, Lucifer tells Dean, “I was just messing with you.” But I wonder if he was . . . it looked to me like there was a change in his face before he turned around, like he was just gaining control. Makes me think perhaps that really was Sam at the beginning there . . . The parallels between Michael/Lucifer and Dean/Sam were nicely done, I thought. Love, love,love that even as his world is coming apart Dean doesn’t lose his snarky.

You’re so right, there’s something about Supernatural. I’ve wondered why this story gets under my skin the way it does . . . Those feelings of connection, love, loneliness, loss are common to all of us. “Good stories are supposed to move us, be an echo of the personal experiences that draw us in.” And thank you for sharing the Dylan Thomas poem; it was perfect.
Evelyn
# Evelyn 2010-05-19 10:57
Karen, you nailed it right there why we love this show. Yes, the Supernatural world may not be real but as you said, the emotions and everything behind them is real, which is why these characters do feel so real to so many of us. And that is the beauty of this show. Love this show!!!!!
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-19 11:10
ElenaM, Evelyn, hi ladies!

I'm charmed, ElenaM, thank you - this episode was indeed a remarkable one and I tried to do it justice, I hope I achieved that.

Evelyn, you are totally there with Karen and myself - we will simply continue to love this show as we have done before. It will continue to touch us.

Thank you, Jas
Supernarttu
# Supernarttu 2010-05-19 15:06
HI Jas, finally got around to read this, was afraid I was gonna get all weepy, and I did. But it's all good, the eppie is that marvelous.

And so was your couch tribute. Lovely, just lovely.

*sniff*
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-19 18:06
Thank you, Supernarttu, you don't have to say more. I know what you feel. You honour me.
Love, Jas
Ardeospina
# Ardeospina 2010-05-19 23:01
Jas, liebes, what an article! As always, the amount of personal emotion you put into your writing has struck a chord with me. Fabulous job, as always.

I for one loved that the focus was on family and friendship and love and not all about the big fight, because at the end of the day, like you said, that's really what this show is about and what keeps us coming back each week.

Great job, and take a deep breath because you get to retire the couch for a while! At least until we all get antsy for the next season to begin!
Yvonne
# Yvonne 2010-05-20 02:41
First article of yours, and of this site, that I've read. Actually had to come back again so I could comment.

So, SO, glad to have found you! I'm the only fan of the show I know, and the refrain 'just a tv show' keeps me guilty of the time I spend watching. No more!!!! Usually avoid these sort of sites and message boards for the not so nice comments often posted. But it seems different here.

Your writing is amazing and insightful. I'm a psych minor and working on my major in Social Work with a desire toward counseling. So your comments and insights make me feel as If I’ve entered my dream lecture hall. Yea!

I've now read quite a few of your posts and what I've found is complete enjoyment in making Sam and Dean a sort of case study. From a standpoint other than that of a fan, what a relief to see examples whose names and faces I know. Connecting the dots becomes easier without the need to worry about protecting the client’s privacy. That might sound horrid, but it's nice to read an open discussion on damaged psyches that I know don't exist. (Other than my own Kripked one.)

That said, it is also a relief to read the love you pour into the boys. It somehow helps validate my own rather absurd care I have for those two. It is just a tv show. But in Swan Song I found myself really affected. Truly. I grieved for Sam, past turning off the show.

Looking forward to more of your writing and checking out some of the other talents on this site.

Oh…one last silly note. I’ve never been a Sam or Dean girl. My love was equally distributed. But after the finale I think I rather fell in love with Sam. As I’ve read that you’re a Sam girl, thought I’d share.
:P
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-20 06:18
Ardeospina, who knows.... maybe the couch will be necessary during the hiatus? It's a long time....

Thank you so much, dearest Flamey, I'm happy that I managed to touch a chord with you. The personal facets have always been the reasons I loved the show, despite the sometimes great action or horror. The development of the characters is what glues us to the screen, indeed, their pains, their joys, their 'being real people' within a fictional story.

Love & hugs, Jas
Jasminka
# Jasminka 2010-05-20 06:32
Yvonne, welcome to this site! And to this article of mine (and the others you've read, as you said, wow, thanks), how generous of you to share your impressions and personal thoughts, thank you so much!

You’re right about the manner of the posts here. I have looked at other sites in the past, too, and didn’t like the sometimes incredibly rude way of commenting, but here it’s different. For the most part, it’s nothing but fun-loving, relaxed, a bit insane, but always respectful and intelligent discussion of the show and its characters. I love that – and I owe a big thank you to every one who raises his voice here and to Alice who made it all possible.
This is indeed a safe haven to talk and go crazy about our favourite show.

I feel honoured to have invited you to a ‘lecture hall’… What I always loved about the show is its psychological reality and continuity and the perfect acting of it. They react like people under that circumstances would react, given their specific nature, and I love that, because it makes the story credible – you rarely find that on other shows in this marvellous way.
I’d like to invite you – dear colleague – to read some of the other articles I’ve written about the guys’ psyches, you might find those enjoyable.

I’m past the feeling-insane- for-caring-that -much-about-a-t v-show. You don’t need that, either. As long as we’re clear that it is indeed a tv show and don’t confuse it with reality, we’re safe.

Good stories are supposed to affect us.

Why else read a book or watch a movie? I think to be able and open to allow yourself to be affected and moved can enhance our lives. It brings more facets and colour to it. It’s not much of a difference here than looking at a magnificent painting. My life is richer for having seen the Mona Lisa once or van Gogh’s Starry Night. It is also richer for having watched this show – it’s fun, it broadens our horizon in some way and it moves us. And I've met so many sweet, kind and bright people here on this site and in real life (e.g. at the Con in L.A., or Alice in D.C.) who make my life richer and more colourful with constructive criticism, a comment like yours or the occasional advice. Or just the plain silly humour we share sometimes. It's another facet of my life, but one I don't want to live without anymore. It adds beautifully to the other aspects in my life I need. Just love it...
No need to feel guilty at all.

About that ‘silly note’, hehehe, don’t worry. Even though I consider myself a SamGirl, I’ve never disliked Dean. He would be the brother I’d like to have, Sam, well, there’s a different matter.
;-)

Thank you, please come back! All my best, Jas :-)
Sablegreen
# Sablegreen 2010-05-20 09:46
Beautiful Jas. Very touching words and you state them so eloquently. You were really moved by this episode. So happy to see you happy, and glad this show can give that to you.