I love any time we get to see Sam and Dean undercover working normal jobs. Besides law enforcement, of course. We get to see that every week. It’s fun to think about how they might have made a living if they hadn’t have become hunters. One thing is for sure, I would love to have Sam as my yoga instructor. Even if I have to hold the downward dog for 10 minutes. Another thing I know for sure; Dean Winchester was not meant for food service.
I was also surprised by how much I enjoyed the monster of the week. It actually kind of reminded me of a season one episode of Smallville. Anyone know the one I’m talking about? I thought Maritza and her husband found an interesting way to get by and actually do a little bit of good in the process. I thought it was such a clever move on the writer’s part to use cupping as a way of explaining the suction marks. But above all that, what impressed me most was that I sympathized with Maritza which is not something that happens with every monster of the week storyline. She was really trying to keep her nose clean. And she was succeeding in doing so. But she still lost her husband and had to give her brother up to hunters. (Which she did willingly.) At the end of the day I wanted Sam and Dean to let her go and I’m glad they did.
I also really liked the actress that played the sheriff. It is not often that the small town sheriff makes much of an impression on me, but in this episode sheriff Donna certainly did. There was something so sweet and funny about the way she and Dean talked through powdered sugar covered mouths. And her friendly Minnesota accent would lead you to believe that there is nothing in the world that could get her down. So when Sam and Dean encounter her at the wellness spa it was interesting to learn that her past isn’t all sunshine and rainbows. It was a nice change of pace to give a little dimension to a character that could have easily been a write-off.
As I said before, this episode wasn’t all laughs. And to be honest, thinking about delving into the more serious conversations in this episode has me feeling a bit exhausted emotionally. The conversation was pretty much a rehashing of what we already know. Sam is upset with Dean for making decisions he didn’t have the right to make. Dean feels bad that Sam is upset, but would make the same call again if he had to. And I’m no closer to siding with one of them than I was before. I agree with both of them.
But one thing has changed for Dean, I think he’s getting a better picture of what Sam meant about keeping it strictly business between them. It seems he was in denial about what Sam meant, or maybe hoping he wouldn’t follow through with it. But Sam is sticking to his guns about their new dynamic as hunting partners rather than brothers. I have to be honest, I’m not sure how well that is going to work out for them. No matter how mad Sam may be, he still loves Dean. We all heard the panic in his voice when Dean got roofied. Just because Sam says they can’t have a brotherly relationship anymore doesn’t mean that it won’t happen naturally. And we know that nothing will stop Dean from protecting Sam the way he always has. I’m just not sure what Sam expects from this new dynamic. Is it more that Dean has lost the right to have any say over Sam’s decisions? Somehow, I don’t see Dean complying very well with that. He’s already made it clear that knowing what he knows, he would have made the same call with Gadreel.
If there was one thing that was different about their conversation in this episode, it was that Sam finally said a couple of things that we’ve all been thinking. He asked Dean to just admit that he saved Sam for himself, not for Sam. I’ve argued this point over and over in my head. Yes, Dean loves Sam very much and wants him safe at all costs. But at the end of the day, I agree that it’s because he, Dean, can’t imagine living without Sam. Not because he thinks it’s what Sam wants. It is incredibly selfish and incredibly human. And I’m with Dean on that. I get it. If I was in his position, I would do the same thing. And when Dean dares Sam to say he’d do things differently if the roles were reversed, he does. Man, that hurt to watch, didn’t it? Believe me, I understand that Sam is probably taking the healthy approach to this. If a loved one is dying and has made peace with it, the healthy thing to do is to let them go. But that’s asking a lot of someone, especially when there is a chance of survival.
Now, I don’t doubt that Sam meant what he said. We all remember that he didn’t look for Dean when he went to Purgatory. He made the choice to let Dean go and try to move on with his life. That is a decision I still wrestle with to this day. But I think hearing Sam come out and say he’d do it again if he had to was very painful for Dean. Whether or not he’d admit it, I think Dean would prefer it if Sam was as dependent on Dean as Dean is on Sam. I’m guessing that it would be a source of comfort for Dean to know there is always someone trying to save him. He even admitted that it was the only thing getting him through Purgatory. But now he knows that’s not necessarily the case.
Ok, enough about that. Like I said, emotionally exhausted. All in all I really liked this episode. It was a nice little break from some of the larger storylines this season. But now I’m ready to get back into it. I am particularly interested in finding out more about this Mark of Cain and what it will mean for Dean. I would also like to see what Metatron and Gadreel have been up to since we last saw them. And I am in serious need of some Cass and Crowley screen time.
What did you guys think of the episode? Were you satisfied with the monster of the week? Are you also feeling exhausted by all the feelings? Anyone have any fresh perspective to offer? I’d love to hear it!
Now a few quotes and moments worth mentioning.
So Dean is drinking again. This is never a good sign.
Sam: “This isn’t about what I said the other day, is it?”
Dean: “Oh, about that we’re not supposed to be brothers? Don’t flatter yourself, I don’t break that easy.”
Sam: “Oh, good. Because I was just being honest.”
Dean: “Oh yeah. No, I got that loud and clear.”
Tensions are running high.
Sam: “You told that waitress the other day that you were 29.”
So it’s not only women who lie about their age.
How funny was it that Sam wanted to question the staff after the pretty blonde walked in? Sorry, Sam. You’re awkward around girls.
Dean: “Kind of like Hans and Franz, but less German.”
Dean: ‘Kicking ass, taking names. It’s how we do!”
Sam: “You’re not the only one that’s ever dated someone bendy.”
Dean: “Sweet potatoes.”
This made me laugh out loud.
Dean: “No, no, I’m gonna come with you... Go ahead man, I’ll catch up.”
See what happens when you go through a Winchester’s glove box? You die.
Maritza: “I’m a pishtaco”
Dean: “A fish taco?”
I might have snorted at this line.
The more Maritza deprived her brother of fat, the hungrier he got. Maybe I’m reaching (a lot), but this seemed like a loose metaphor (or analogy, I never understood the difference) for Sam and Dean’s relationship. The more Sam deprives Dean of that emotional bond, the more Dean is going to want it back.
And just for fun, let’s re-live this painful interaction:
Dean: “About what you said the other day.”
Sam: “I thought it didn’t bother you.”
Dean: “You know Sam, I saved your hide back there. And I saved your hide at that church, and the hospital. I may not think things all the way through, but what I do, I do because it’s the right thing. I’d do it again.”
Sam: “And that is the problem. You think you’re my savior. My brother, the hero. You swoop in and even when you mess up you think what you’re doing is important because you convinced yourself you’re doing more good than bad. But you’re not. Kevin’s dead, Crowley’s in the wind, we’re no closer to beating this angel thing. Please tell me, what is the up side of me being alive?”
Dean: “You kidding me? You and me, fighting the good fight together.”
Sam: “Ok. Just once, be honest with me. You didn’t save me for me. You did it for you.”
Dean: “What are you talking about?”
Sam: “I was ready to die. I was ready. I should have died. But you, you didn’t want to be alone. That’s what all this boils down to. You can’t stand the thought of being alone.”
Sam: “I’ll give you this much, you are certainly willing to do the sacrificing. As long as you’re not the one being hurt.”
Dean: “Alright, you wanna be honest? If the situation were reversed and I was dying, you’d do the same thing.”
Sam: “No, Dean. I wouldn’t. Same circumstances, I wouldn’t.”
Come on, February 25!